My 1st post...don't hold your breaths is prolly wont be anything fantastic. I'm not very good with words...well writing or typing them down. Most of the time I don't make any sense. I am always forgetting to put in words and I cant spell very well and I rarely proof read my stuff...I prolly should start doing that tho...not that there will be many of you reading this.
I was given a note book to write things down to help me get through the passing of my mom. To help me write down the things I feel and get them off my chest. In the last 10 month I've written in it twice.
I never realized how hard it was to put things in writing. for me its easier to to get my feelings out in my art...or my make believe art...I always feel better after I finish up a drawing or a painting. I haven't done much of that lately tho...lately I have no drive to wanna express myself in my art. Instead I have been listening to a lot on Pandora...all different kinds of music. haha...Finding songs that express exactly what I'm thinking and feeling.
Its funny how someone's words can move you so much. There has been so many times I've come across a song and felt like that person must have read my mind. Whenever I am sad I hear a song that makes me cry...and oddly enough I feel better. Songs that make me wanna get up and dance. Songs that make me think of my friends, songs that remind me of my mom...and how funny and silly she was.
I envy those people...I wish I could express my pain, my sower, my happiness, my love in the way they can. Its beautiful.
Sadly tho I have a horrible singing voice so its prolly for the best I'm not a song writer.
So maybe this will be my way of expressing myself....I guess we will see....
